Wednesday, July 20, 2011,12:42 AM
Gentleman. Awwhhhhhhh (:
Bloggieee, I've spent RM733.80 at Craft Haven on Sat! O: And well, my dad bought them for me but I feel like paying him back. Just like how I did with the previous RM300. Haha! And so, I'm planning to have this Fund Raising Album on Facebook. (: And I twitted about it (directing it to another friend) and then, one of my cg members saw, then he asked how he could help support (: Awwhhh. So sweet right?!! Haha. Then later on, one of my old friends also tweeted me and said he heard I'm doing a Fund Raising thing, and he has some stuff to give me to sell. Ain't that sweet? (: I feel so loved! Hahahah! Both of them guys some more weih! Gentlemens are flooding! :D Awwhhhhh! So sweet lahhh!! Can't stop smiling (: Awwhhhhh!!! Awwwhhhh !!! Awwhhhhhhhhh <3 Aihs. Life is sweet when you have friends like this! Awwwhhhhhhh (: *Bear hugs!*
and there is none like you Jesus. ♥ Hosanna
Sunday, July 17, 2011,9:06 PM
If you are made redundant…God has a plan for you.
This quote. A promise from God. I believe it is written for me too (: I feel redundant in certain places in my life. Especially in my class, my school. Among the girls. The girls, they always always hang out together, they celebrate everyone's birthday and invite everyone for certain events. Everyone but not me. It's not that they hate me, no no, I know it's not. I'm just not noticeable. They do care, just not as much and I don't feel it. This year, on my birthday. No one wished me.. really. Only a few like Zhi Wei and so wished. The rest? They don't even know. I mean, they DO know when it is. But perhaps they forgot and just well, didn't wish in the end. Hurtful. To see them celebrating everyone's except mine. It's not about the celebrating, they didn't even wish me. ): At least, Jun Kit actually wished a belated birthday. The girls? No no, not at all. What am I to do so much for them? I know, I know, I always tell people, it's about giving, you don't expect anything back. But, thing is, I really really put an effort even for people im not close with! There was once, I'm not close to this girl, it was a birthday, there was a surprise, I contributed and helped out. We got her a guitar, not cheap ~ really. And then, guess what? She was guessing and stuff and said I confirm didn't contribute. WASEH. S: I feel so.. zzz.. Aihs. Dear Jolene, please constantly remind yourself it's about the giving, not the receiving. Thank you. Sometimes the human flesh is just so demanding, they want to be loved too. Well, I am loved, just not by this bunch of people. But I have friends in church, in my old school who loves me to bits! And I love them too. It's just that I can't spend much time with them. If I can, my life would be amazing. I can't wait to leave this bunch of people next year! Really. I miss my school, definitely. But the people, I might miss some of them, like Yumey and so, but the rest? Maybe a tinsy bit. Whenever someone invites me somewhere, I actually make an effort to go, always, cause I believe it is important to actually support and attend something when invited. But when I go there, once again I'm alone. Hah! I ain't joining u guys next time! Angry. Anyways, that's about it. Complaining's over. Whoever reading this, just ignore it. It ain't me.. it's just the bad side of me.. URGH! Releasing anger and dissapointment. That is all. Soon I shall be a smiling pig riding a buffalo in tutu! (: Anyways, not all things in my life are bad. It's just this small part that affects me the most. My life is perfect otherwise. I have Loveen and the whole Dubcube team to love, together with those from usj13 like Chein Shyan, Li Li and the rest, and also my beautiful family <3 I love them to bits, really. I do. I do. I do! (: And I have God to love and for Him to love me back :D I love Him, for he loved me first! I believe he has a better plan for me. All these messy complicated stuff? Just a test! I shall trust in Him! LOVE YOU GOD!!!!!! My BEST Friend! (:
and there is none like you Jesus. ♥ Hosanna
Saturday, July 16, 2011,1:32 PM
*Giggles* I love her too!
Hahaha!!! (: I'm so glad to have friends who love me so much still though we seldom see each other already. O: My friends in USJ13 are superb! Even though I've changed school and never visited them for about more than a year already, they still love me so much :P Awwhhh! I went to ActsChurch with 2 of them ytd (: And we had tons of fun :D Just like last time! Hahahahha!!! Came back and one of them changed her facebook profile pic to one with her and I together and she wrote "*Giggles* I love her" . (: Awwhhhhh. How sweet! :D hehe. I feel so loved by her :P hahahah!!!
The friends here in my school now are nice, but it's so different still. I don't feel belong whenever I'm with them. I'm like not a part of them. I still love them, I do. It's just that there's something different, and sometimes, in whatever they do, I just don't seem to be part of it.
and there is none like you Jesus. ♥ Hosanna
Visited Acts Church today and had tons of fun! (: i went w CheinShyan,LiLi and Lillian. Haha. Bumped into Aaron and Damien too! Lol. Then, i also met Brian Ong again! Haha. Idk if u know, but I really admire his English! Haha. It's been 2 years since I saw him (: he's taller now and looks slightly different. Haha! (: Met a few new friends too but i cant really rmb their names. Haha!it was pretty fun i guess. Hehehe.
K la. Im sleepy d. Goodnighy!!
and there is none like you Jesus. ♥ Hosanna
Sunday, July 10, 2011,11:17 PM
I miss my kor ): I really really really miss my kor! Urghh. S: *Hugs!* (:
and there is none like you Jesus. ♥ Hosanna
BLOOGGGIIIEE! Macho went missing today ): About 6pm+ I think. Ahhh.. he was out and about in the garden again like usual. He can fit through the gate, we know. But he never runs out unless he sees one of us outside. He's a very very good boy O: but well, today a few of my friends came, and when i let them in he's still there. Then after a while when I maid came back with dad. He's MISSING. ): We ran about on the roads but couldn't find him anywhere. ): I think someone took him S: He's such a friendly lil boy! O: Aihs.. but we can't do anything now but wait. S: Gosh. I'm surprised though, because somehow I didn't actually felt as SAD as I thought I would. S: I'm sad yes, but not as much as I thought I would actually be. I think if it's Roxy, I won't sleep but run everywhere searching for her.. S: AHHH. I don't know.. things went pretty well at first.. but.. idk .. suddenly he went missing.. everything was a mess.. i don't even know if it's a good day or a bad day. ): You wanna decide for me? I'll summarize what happened today.
- Morning went amali [engine class for driving] alone.
- Met 2 new friends there. [One of them had a lot of things in common w me]
- Came home early from amali thx to my awesome instructor
- Browse through tons of crafts.. made me happy.
- Trained Roxy and she learnt the trick 'Back Up' and brushed up on 'Cross Paws'
- Macho went missing
- (Friends at my house baking for project. Making Fortune Cookies) Cookies were pretty.. unsuccessful.
- 3hours and we only got 3 successful cookies! THREE.
- Things started to work out better. Cookies are looking better.
- Macho still not found.
- Here I am. O:
What do you think? Does the bad cancel out the good? Gah.. I have no idea. Just pray that Macho somehow finds a way home. Amen.
and there is none like you Jesus. ♥ Hosanna
Monday, July 4, 2011,12:38 AM
Dear bloggie. I'm in love. Yes I am (: I'm definitely in love.
But you know, the thing about love is.. it's always so funny. It messes you all over and make you feel happy and sad at the same time! Ahh.. this one is different I think, but you know me.. I really don't know these things. Last time, when I was younger, the first guy I liked was because of his looks I guess, and the 2nd was because I missed playing with him when we were kids..? When they walk pass or are nearby, my legs really turned into Jelly and I couldn't move at all. Really. And if people tease me I'd really blush blush and try to hide I suppose. I don't know. But this time, it's different. I don't turn Jelly and I'm perfectly fine with the person around. You'd think that 'oh, maybe it means you don't really like like him as much as the previous ones?' but I don't think it's like that. I find this weird yes, but I do like like him. For how he is. For his character, his smile, his everything. I have no idea why my leg doesn't turn jelly or i don't have those awkward times and stuff. I really don't know why. I just know that I kinda REALLY like him. This time really for who he is I guess. But who knows. Anyways, I want to be a person who is happy no matter what and to be one who thinks of others. And by that, means I always want the person whom I love to be happy themselves. If they're happy, I should be happy. And well, the person I like already likes someone else ): Of course I feel a little sad and stuff, but you know what? The person he likes is a really really really loving and caring girl. Someone really joyful and amazing. And so, I've decided to back off and you know.. just be there. She's a great person and if both of them are to be together, at least I know he'll be happy with such an amazing person (: I still wish though, for myself. But.. if he's happy, I'm happy (: Maybe he's not the right one for me yet. I believe God has already planned everything out for us, we just got to be patience sometimes. So yeah. I'm leaving it all to God! I will love whoever God choose. To love someone is a choice (: And I choose to love whoever God puts me with, cause I know he only wants the BEST for me! Besides.. I promised Him, no relationship whatsoever till 18! heh. (: Keep your promises Jolene! Don't go floating about already. haha!
Alrighty, that's it. I just got to let it out and type everything off. haha! Lazy to read what I typed so yeah, whatever is written is just written and unedited. It is RAW. hahah! K lah. Dear future me, please pat yourself for finding a great husband in the future. HAHAHAHA!!! <3 Awhh. God is AMAZING! (:
and there is none like you Jesus. ♥ Hosanna
